Schoeneweis rediscovers love for game

Schoeneweis rediscovers love for game

BALTIMORE -- Scott Schoeneweis was in the clubhouse on Saturday, yet the player who'd had a locker right next to his only a day earlier was gone. With Daisuke Matsuzaka activated so he could pitch Saturday's game, the Red Sox needed to make a roster spot available, and Alan Embree, who has the same veteran lefty reliever pedigree as Schoeneweis, was the odd man out.

Both were late signees by the Red Sox during Spring Training. But Schoeneweis had the advantage of spending the first portion of Spring Training with the Brewers, while Embree was home in Oregon when the Sox called. In the end, that was probably the difference.

"I know that my time here has been a tenuous thing," Schoeneweis said. "I feel like I've mixed in pretty well and done what's been asked of me. Obviously, you grow to be a part of a team and get to know guys and stuff, and I obviously didn't want it to end. I am kind of happy to be here ... At least until the next move needs to be made, I can stay here.

"Like I said, when this all started, I set out to do something, and I feel like I accomplished that, just coming back and showing that I can play and still get people out. Whatever happens outside of that is beyond my control."

What pleased Schoeneweis the most about surviving this cut is that his children are scheduled to fly to Boston from Arizona next week.

"It's my son's birthday," he said. "I was trying to figure out [what to say if I got released]. You get them kind of geared up ... I had them geared up to go to Milwaukee, had them geared up to come to the Red Sox and come live in Boston and stuff, and to keep changing, that's what I worry about. Not me, I could care less. That was a conversation I didn't want to have to have."

The last year has been difficult for the family, as Schoeneweis' wife died suddenly last May. Though last season was a complete loss for him, he has rediscovered his love for baseball.

"I really do believe in myself and my ability," he said. "I know what I'm capable of doing, just by the way I feel ... in comparison to how I've felt the last few years and how I feel now, especially mentally. I just know that I like to be here, I really like this team and, obviously, the market and a chance to be a championship team is a huge deal."

Schoeneweis and Embree had a nice conversation in the clubhouse after the latter was informed of his release late Friday night, even sharing a hug.

"Us left-handed old specialists, we run in to each other so often, we kind of respect each other for what we've done," said Schoeneweis. "It's just a shame that the both of us were on the same team. We were joking around -- you've got to spread the love a little bit. We shouldn't be competing for the same job. Just as I would be, he was totally professional. It's not a personal thing. It's one of those things. There's only one spot."