It was tough to see it end like this. We wanted to find a way to get today's 'W' and get the ball in Curt Schilling's hand Saturday. We couldn't find a way to do it.
We had Manny Ramirez and David Ortiz going back-to-back to tie the game up. It seemed like we had the momentum. And then they came right back and grabbed the lead from us. Then we came right back and made it 4-3 with the bases loaded and nobody out.
I'll tell you, they brought an X-factor. Orlando Hernandez came in and did a great job for them. Sometimes you have to really tip your hat to the job that those guys did. That team right there swung the bats well, they pitched well, they did everything they needed to do to be the better team in the series. They definitely were the better team and they're the team that's advancing.
We felt if we could find a way to win Friday, we had a good chance of winning again Saturday and bringing it to a Game 5. The main thing, though, is getting that first win, and we couldn't do it. We just couldn't find a way.
We didn't get timely hitting, we didn't do the small things that win games and we weren't playing the best at the right time. I think the White Sox are definitely the hottest team as far as what they've done down the stretch and what they've done this series. Ozzie Guillen has those guys over there believing.
They were impressive, because they bunt, they hit with some power, they had a nice squeeze play in the ninth inning, they just keep putting pressure on you. They have the right mix going right now. They have good pitching, they have a guy in Bobby Jenks who is throwing the heck out of the ball in the bullpen. They have some power in their lineup, and some speed. Right now, they're a team to be reckoned with. You wish them luck.
We had our share of adversity this year. Every team goes through that and battles ups and downs. I think the group of guys in this locker room has a lot of reasons to hold our heads high. We gave it everything we had every single night. The injury stuff, that's part of baseball. Every team goes through that, the NFL, basketball. That's what it's all about. We came up on the short end and they deserve to be advancing.
I've had three great years here, and now I don't know what's going to happen. I'm a free agent, obviously. I don't know what the situation is for myself personally. There's potentially four or five new faces that will come in here position-player-wise. Myself, Billy Mueller, Johnny Damon, there's talk that they might trade Manny.
There's some tough decisions they have to make. One thing is, a group like this doesn't come around very often. The group of guys that we have here, I don't think will be quite appreciated until we're gone. We have a tight group and a great group of guys and I think it's a testament to the guys general manager Theo Epstein brought in here and we were very fortunate to play together for the last three years.
Kevin Millar's diary appears as told to Ian Browne, a reporter for MLB.com. This story was not subject to the approval of Major League Baseball or its clubs.